The autumn weather has become nicer as each week progresses and as night falls I find myself desiring to seek the Lord in new ways. My days are rushed and hurried through, it’s not until I come home that I get to slow down and decompress. Though the Lord shows me amazing things throughout the day, I value what He has to reveal to me in the silence of the night. My brain is crowded with thoughts from the information I take in all around me and the knowledge I gain at CGA. I love information, details, and intaking as much knowledge as I can, that I’ve become comfortable with spending the majority of my relationship with God in the Word. As it turns out, God is a lot more complex and desires to have a deep intimate relationship with me outside of the Bible.
For the past couple of weeks, in the time I typically spend with the Lord, He hasn’t been telling me to pick up my Bible. In fact I’ve had little passion to even pick it up and open the cover. Instead, Jesus has been telling me that He just wants me to experience what ‘being’ with Him looks and feels like. To sit in His presence and just ‘be.’
Laying underneath the star filled skies in the darkening night, the moon radiating it’s beams so bright that I can see all around me, yet shining on me solely as if to isolate me and show me my importance–God’s call to me to ‘be.’ I walk out of my comfort zone in sitting silence and feel nothing till my eye draws onto one star. This one star God formed in the sky and shines brightly with an immensely long life, this one star Abraham counted thousands of years ago as one of his offspring. Realizing that my life has been crammed with loud noises and no chance of escape for 21 years, yet amidst all the craziness, God still sits in the silence yearning for me to just glance in His direction. So I start writing…
I see you
Underneath the midnight stars
I see you
Through the moon beam
There’s complexity inside me spinning
Image intertwined
Divine and flesh
Keep breathing son
You’re my promised star
The silhouette of the trees
Creation brings deeper meaning
My tears are screaming
How come I never hear you?
In the beginning
In the end
This one message to you I’ll send
When you’re free
When behind closed bars
You have always been my midnight star
I feel you
In the cold of nights breeze
I feel you
Through darkness’ sting
There’s no motivation in my steps
Deeply purposed
By God and man
Only one can stand
Keep walking son
You’re my promised star
Five paths, one answer
The roads are winding
The souls are decaying
Yet I keep on walking
Night goes on
Yet these three remain
The moon and the stars
And a voiceless sting
Night goes on
Yet these three remain
The moon and the stars
And a voiceless sting
I feel a breeze
Overwhelming me
Pushing through the life filled trees
A still small voice
How could it have been my choice?
That the words you bring
Have been in the silent things
