I have returned to Georgia to finish up the four more months of training I have with Adventures in Missions. It’s been a long road up to here and a longer road awaits ahead. I tend to feel very lost at times without the certainty of the future. The more time I walk down this road I find that the future tends to be irrelevant and if I knew where I was certain to go then that would require no faith. So I just take another step.

I’ve been praying a lot, asking God where He wants me, and I have to laugh knowing that every time I do this the Lord never gives me an answer. The answer lies in my faithfulness to go wherever and serve our King. The Lord has a plan and a vision for where I will go and He trusts that I will follow faithfully towards the option He has written out for me from the beginning of time.

I get scared.

I doubt.

I question.

How blessed am I to have loads of options?! Is Bella Goose and the Philippines my only option or does my God have something even greater planned for me? If I go when will I actually leave? How long will my season actually be there? What about Japan? What about the Middle East? What about all the injustice and the souls longing for Jesus in those countries?

While wallowing in my seeming lostness, on my knees in prayer I randomly opened my Bible and it came to Numbers 6. A chapter which chronicles the rules, lifestyle, and vows by which a Nazarite shall live his life. A man set apart to honor God with his life and body. I looked up at the ceiling and gave God what I would call a “Why this chapter?” look and rolled my eyes. Yet the more I listened I heard His truths start to speak. What is the one attribute it takes to live the life of a Nazarite?

“Obedience”

“This is your name my son. Man of God I will not answer you with absolutes, for I am your only absolute. You have followed me into every place I’ve taken you and I know you will continue to follow. I designed you with an obedient heart, yet it was your choice to walk in it. With obedience comes faith. Your obedience will take you further than you want to go, but you will follow me to the places no man will go. Stay obedient and I will show you my wonders.”

And so I will follow.